Right now work and school are killing me. I keep getting more and more piled on at work. I had to take a breather for a minute. So my blog posts may suffer.
Found out last week that I will be having rotator cuff surgery on April 6th. I will bunk out at my mom and Greg's at the beginning. My girlfriend Denise and her girls love having Gertie so I will take Gertie over there while I recuperate. At least I hope Denise will be good with that.
The recovery will be cutting into my golf and motorcycle time this summer.
Anyway - I better get back to work. Not too much else really going on.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Texas
Well I am in Texas. I am in Dallas (well actually the suburb of Irving) at the moment. I took my peeps out to dinner last night and then lunch today. We had a really good time getting to know each other in person. We had connected anyway but it was even better in person. And hopefully they have a better "view" of the NOC - Network Operations Center hub in St Paul.
Last Tuesday I went and caucused in Eagan. I signed up to be a delegate at the Senate District convention. I also submitted two mental health resolutions. The response was a bit weird. Well - not weird - but no one asked any questions at all - they just approved. On the other resolutions - there were questions. Although - like my mom said - most people don't know much about mental illnesses. I stood up and said who I was. And I said I have two resolutions under the Health and Human Services category. And the both pertain to mental health. I live with bipolar disorder and volunteer a lot for NAMI which is why I wanted to submit these. One of the resolutions was about providing a discharge plan so to speak for people in jail that have a mental illness (there are many) and so instead of keeping them within the penal system - why not provide other places to live to help them live with their symptoms and work toward recovery. The other one was about keeping the Bridges program in place - which provides transitional housing for those with a mental illness that are homeless. There were statistics in both of them also. After I read the resolutions I did re-cap a summary of the intent behind it. The silence was just a bit awkward and luckily the person running the show just said - all in favor? And there were all "ayes" and no nays. Which I didn't anticipate anyway since we were all democrats!
So last Thursday when I went and saw Lisa - I was still just so mad. Yes - I flipping held on to my anger for the entire week. In fact on Thursday I was just dreading allll day seeing her. And I almost bailed. Just because I was still so upset with her and still felt like she was "firing" me. I think one thing that kinda stuck in my mind that whole week tho - is when I went and saw Ginny - the addiction counselor - she said that she had caught up with Lisa and said - Lisa really really cares about you. So I don't know what they discussed but it told me that I of course had blown it all out of proportion.
Which deep down I know that. I knew I was overly freaking out. But it just hurt so much. And the thought of having to start all over again per se - just did not appeal to me.
Of course - when I use my DBT skills to make sense of things - I am not really starting over either because I know Ginny. Yes only from DBT but at least there was already a foundation. And to be honest - the addiction focus has been quite quite interesting. I am just a person that wants things to make sense. I don't know if that is my analytical brain or what....but I want stuff to make sense.
Anyhoo - so here I sit in Irving Texas. In theory I would be out checking stuff out - but these peeps down here drive so outta control! It even scares ME! But it has been good today. I did some homework this morning, then went to work to give reviews and then we went to lunch. And now I am back in the room again and finished up some more homework. And it feels sooo good to just sit and relax. I really must start doing that. I keep saying I need to slow down or moderate. Maybe when I am 70 I will be successful at it.
Last Tuesday I went and caucused in Eagan. I signed up to be a delegate at the Senate District convention. I also submitted two mental health resolutions. The response was a bit weird. Well - not weird - but no one asked any questions at all - they just approved. On the other resolutions - there were questions. Although - like my mom said - most people don't know much about mental illnesses. I stood up and said who I was. And I said I have two resolutions under the Health and Human Services category. And the both pertain to mental health. I live with bipolar disorder and volunteer a lot for NAMI which is why I wanted to submit these. One of the resolutions was about providing a discharge plan so to speak for people in jail that have a mental illness (there are many) and so instead of keeping them within the penal system - why not provide other places to live to help them live with their symptoms and work toward recovery. The other one was about keeping the Bridges program in place - which provides transitional housing for those with a mental illness that are homeless. There were statistics in both of them also. After I read the resolutions I did re-cap a summary of the intent behind it. The silence was just a bit awkward and luckily the person running the show just said - all in favor? And there were all "ayes" and no nays. Which I didn't anticipate anyway since we were all democrats!
So last Thursday when I went and saw Lisa - I was still just so mad. Yes - I flipping held on to my anger for the entire week. In fact on Thursday I was just dreading allll day seeing her. And I almost bailed. Just because I was still so upset with her and still felt like she was "firing" me. I think one thing that kinda stuck in my mind that whole week tho - is when I went and saw Ginny - the addiction counselor - she said that she had caught up with Lisa and said - Lisa really really cares about you. So I don't know what they discussed but it told me that I of course had blown it all out of proportion.
Which deep down I know that. I knew I was overly freaking out. But it just hurt so much. And the thought of having to start all over again per se - just did not appeal to me.
Of course - when I use my DBT skills to make sense of things - I am not really starting over either because I know Ginny. Yes only from DBT but at least there was already a foundation. And to be honest - the addiction focus has been quite quite interesting. I am just a person that wants things to make sense. I don't know if that is my analytical brain or what....but I want stuff to make sense.
Anyhoo - so here I sit in Irving Texas. In theory I would be out checking stuff out - but these peeps down here drive so outta control! It even scares ME! But it has been good today. I did some homework this morning, then went to work to give reviews and then we went to lunch. And now I am back in the room again and finished up some more homework. And it feels sooo good to just sit and relax. I really must start doing that. I keep saying I need to slow down or moderate. Maybe when I am 70 I will be successful at it.
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